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September 4, 2009

I can’t be the only one…

Filed under: culture, musings, philosophy, rants — bardicknowledge @ 2:02 pm

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking of lately and soon I will be living alone for the first time since my accident. I have avoided living alone the last four years due to frequent slumps of depression I slide into but I figured it was time for me to face this aspect of my life and either beat it or let it beat me. Either way is acceptable but the first option is likely the most pleasant.

I really can’t be the only person out there that has a hard time dealing with people. Others must be the same. Others must not want to talk to people, be it on the phone or in person. Other must also want to avoid conflict, even if it comes at a personal loss. Others. The thing I’m afraid off. I dunno what it is about people that make be want to stay at home, or that make me so angry. Why can’t they see? Maybe it’s just me that can’t see? But either way, I’m pissed about it. Is it really that difficult to be a consider person, to keep your word, to not only ever look out for number one?

This is my main problem with society. It’s one for one. It’s almost never all for one, or one for all. No one give’s a shit about anything but themselves. And this is why I avoid conflict. Because I don’t want to start arguing with people that are only looking out for themselves. Because no matter no sound your logic is, those fuckwads will bend it to fit their twisted sense that everything in the world revolves around them.

And it’s these thoughts of people constantly looking out for themselves that make me depressed. Or at least a large part of it. How can you trust someone that only looks out for themselves? How can you tell when they really care or just using you? (this is in no way directed at my girlfriend in case she ends up reading this… which is unlikely).

I dunno. I can’t be the only one. There has to be others out there that care for more than just themselves. But here is the kicker. I’m too afraid of dealing with people to find out.

Oh well. Fuck it. I’ll just live with my depression caused by my perception of society. At least I won’t bother anyone since I can’t stand dealing with them…

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November 15, 2006

Kiwi! ^_^

Filed under: culture, internet, philosophy — bardicknowledge @ 12:09 am

So, tag surfing on wordpress, I came across this buddy’s post concerning a video about a Kiwi.

You must watch it! It’s such a great video!

November 1, 2006

A slightly more human feel…

Filed under: blog, culture, internet, movies, music, musings, news, philosophy, rants, religion, reviews — jetfx @ 7:23 pm

An odd choice of words on Bardic’s part since I’ve accused of being a soulless machine more times than I care to count, but I will bring some new perspectives to the blog. I’m jetfx and I’m the new co-author and I’m supposed to take care philosophy/culture aspects of the blog, while still staying in the general realm of computers and the internet (or at least nerdiness). Bardic will cover the technical aspect of the blog, but there will be some crossover between us.

So a few things about me, I’m twenty and currently in my third year of a history degree at Dalhousie University in Halifax, Canada. Rather than giving you a huge run down of what my interests are, you can just check out my livejournal, which has mostly personal posts and musings, as well as a fairly complete profile of myself.

I look forward to posting in this blog, because I know it’ll give me a much wider readership than I already have. I will try to keep things interesting so I don’t scare the readership away as well.

-jetfx

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